When life throws you lemons make a lemonade....

 

Hello, everyone! 

It's been a while since I have updated this one. I hope everyone is doing well and had a good winter and summer. There are numerous refinements in my life just past that I haven't been sharing with you all.

From career upgrades to educational progress to faith progress and so on. 

After a long run with the YMCA, I have decided to take a leap of faith and move to the school board. Never thought in my life I would become a public servant. It's like what comes goes around. Both of my parents worked for the government in the Philippines for quite some time, especially my dad. Just a fun fact, on my dad's side, grandparents worked for the government as well, even my aunts and uncles. Furthermore, on both parents sides, some of them are educators. Here I am working for the education sector, and I feel so fulfilled with this. To be honest with you all, sometimes my patience is running low, but I just think that these kids, especially the special needs adults, have compassion and empathy towards them. This is what I always tell the people that I have conversations with about this work that we are doing: "I love dealing with kids; kids are kids, they don't know what they are doing." However, I am appalled at how the parents are dealing with them and making us educators bad and not doing our work. 

To cut to the chase, I am happy that I have found the place that I may be staying for a longer period of time. Yes, there are various works that I could've considered; however, I have reasons why I have chosen this sector that I could join, but I chose this sector to pour out my time, effort, and compassion towards these kids. 

Probably most of you were aware that last fall semester I jumped back to upgrade my diploma into a full-fledged degree. Lo and behold, I am almost there to snatch that degree. I was being told by our financial aid that with 15 more credits to go, I'll be graduating soon, approximately in fall 2026 (God willing). I am still in awe and comprehending this matter that I am almost there, that I can put BSW at the end of my name. Yes, I know some of you are telling me that I am an insane person doing both full-time work and full-time school. Well, all I can say is that it's all about the balance and determination of hitting two birds with one stone. It may be hard at first, but you will get used to it. I may have flaws sporadically, but all I can say is this is just a stepping stone for me. Nothing in this world is as swift as when you get your food from a fast food place or grocery store; rather, it will always be a race that sometimes you win, but sometimes you lose. 

As I continue reminiscing about these professional changes in my life, it seems that despite all the darkest odds that I have experienced in this wild ride, I am still surviving with this mayhem. Internal bruises and wounds are being patched up with prayer, being with close friends, community, or most of the days just being alone to rejuvenate my aching soul and mind. If I can just share my experiences right now with my work over here, I can't, since it's confidential and this is still a public sphere that can be seen by many despite that I have just shared it with you, who are in my direct circle. In my own perspective right now, school and work are both professional growth since these two intertwine with one another. Likewise, this may be a private blog, and we don't know how the internet works these days, especially some of the corporations and their current HR minions will try their best to find us on Social Media. 

As for my faith journey, I am almost halfway towards my first vow with the Secular Order of Discalced Carmelites. With all honesty here, despite that there are challenges sporadically with some commitments, I am still at peace with this decision that I have made with this vocation that I chose. This may be likewise a random yet quick call from the Lord, but I am joyful with this and enjoying striving even closer to God and enjoying the silence that sometimes, for some, may be boring, but for me, it's not. Like what other people said, "Different journey, different outcome in life." We may have different boats to journey on, but our main goal is to arrive at one common destination... Heaven, where there is no more pain, sorrow, and regrets in life. 

As for my whole being, well, to be honest, as the time passes by, I am acquiring some habits that I just neglected for a long time, such as reading books or listening to audiobooks. Definitely, some of you will ask what kind of genre you are into right now. Well, I am more into things related to my field, where most of them are about how to deal with people and, at the same time, self-help as well. I am not into fictional books; rather, I prefer philosophy, biography, and something that can help me to grow as a person. However, these days there are times that I feel that regret is relatively visiting me. There are times that I wish I never met this person who broke my heart. It's like there are times that I still blame myself for the situation, but what can I do? It's already done. Likewise, it's been more than a year. I know healing takes time and effort on my part to move on, and moving on is not an overnight situation. Partially, the anger is still in my heart, but I keep asking God to guide me along the way and empower the people who surround me to uplift me. I am just glad that God sends people that I can be comfortable with to share life and listen to them. I am still blessed enough to have my counsellor for my mental health. Honestly, whatever it takes, he is the best one that I had. 

I am still rising above and continuing to work on myself and exploring things that I have not explored yet. I know things are still coming, and I am still viewing other possibilities that can happen as I continue my journey here on earth. Likewise, on each island of life that I sail on, there will be new adventures that I will encounter and be mesmerized by. 

I am not promising that I will be posting anytime soon, but I will keep updating you sporadically. Life needs focus, and this world these days is something else. In today's society, when you lose your focus, your whole ball game will lose its momentum. Every minute, every second matters these days, especially with my professional changes in life. If I pose again, I will for sure make you aware on my Instagram. If you are not on my Instagram, I will send you the link if I have your number. 

Until here then...