The Rising of the Phoenix

 

Hey Everyone! How's going? I know it's been awhile since I have spoken my mind. Life got busy lately, and numerous changes happened in my life. It's been a year since the day that I experienced the bitterness of the reality where I thought I found love but not. It's been a year since that I strive to rise above the bitterness and turn myself into somewhat a crazy ass lady who just wants to keep myself busy and stay close to my friends that I have created. Friends that I have retained for many years that always got my back. Furthermore, the transition to a newer boat for my career just happened.

It's so crazy how God moves me in mysterious ways, where he always puts people in my life where they will make you seen and make you important. I am so blessed enough that I gained new friends who are my neighbour (I have been friends with them since last year and honestly, they are a wonderful couple that I ever met and became part of my friend circle). Just makes me feel somewhat I belong to a great community that I never felt before. Currently, I feel freer since the day I have decided to jump to off the bigger boat and sail off to see new opportunities for my life. I know some people are asking me: “Do you regret taking this leap of faith?” My answer to this is “No”. I never regret this leap of faith that I have done for myself. 

I am so thankful for some people who supported me in this leap of faith, and I will be forever grateful for them. As of my current situation of my education, I am still thriving with my studies. I passed my 2nd year university and currently taking a summer semester to do some courses that are required and filler courses that needed for graduation. To be honest, I thought work-school balance is difficult to do, however little by little I am getting the grind of it. I know there will be times that I have to sacrifices things to just make everything work. As crazy as it is, I can still juggle volunteering in my local parish and other things that I have been part of. But I know my boundaries that I need to do from time to time. 

Despite all this, there are times it lingers in my mind, and it pains me when I am alone. However, there are times that lingers when I am trying to leave as normal as I can be. I remember there was a day this friend of mine saw my somewhat my train was off the tracks. Well, I have tried to lie to her, but I feel bad about it.  But don't worry, the following day I told her what's up with my insane mind. Lo and behold, her words of wisdom speak volumes towards that agony lingers in my mind. To be honest, it gave me a great relief when I blurted out to her and gave me a self-reflection to ponder on. Because of her words of wisdom, I am going through again trying to fight this demon within and rise above like a phoenix that just came out from the ashes. 

Honestly, it just almost half of the year and plenty of things happen, blessings upon blessing are coming. Thankful for having new friends, regaining connection with old friends and, lastly, my faith is getting stronger despite shortcomings that have, I can still feel the love of God by sending people will mould me for who I am. I know that there will be more to come, and I know the people that I have right now I got their support and, of course, the faith that I have will be the beacon and my guide. 

More to come for the update, may be not that frequent, but I will make sure that will keep you posted. 

Until here then